Uncomfortable.

There comes a time in your life when you don't know what to do with yourself. You find yourself staring out the window watching the world go by, looking at all of the people who seem to actually be doing something. You begin to wonder if this is it. Am I stuck like this forever? Where will I go next? What am I doing?

For me, that time is now. I'm still a student at college, but I want to be doing something fun and fulfilling. I seem to be stuck in this vicious cycle with myself where I strive to be someone but I can't because my mind wont let me move on from being a teenager. 

It is difficult for me. I want to be someone very successful  with a job that I am so passionate about that it won't really be considered a job. I want my days to be so long that when I finally reach home I can put the kettle on, jump into bed and lay back feeling exhausted, but it won't matter because I know that it was worth it. 

But then again, I know that I need to push myself to get there. I need to step out of my comfort zone and become that person who I want to be. I know I need to be more confident in myself, I know I can do it. But there's still that teenager inside me saying "Don't be silly, you're never going to make it." 

I guess I'm just a little uncomfortable right now.